I am so annoyed with AOL right now (AOL user’s i know your thinking who isn’t right??) I just use the e-mail there but it wont let me in it says the service is down… whatever I was just excited to start reviewing designers applications for DPH. I read a few yesterday and have already accepted 2 which is exciting too, but the truth is I think we need to have about 10 and right now we are at 6 so we should have no problem getting there… I hope!

Bobbie (DPH’s co-owner) brought up we have no photoshop styles so yesterday I figured out how to make some, and came up with these:

and also I have a new template set

I’m a real dork sometimes… but in all fairness if you don’t ask me the right question i cant give the right answer…
Today regarding adoption when asked about race i said it isn’t important… meaning i don’t care what race a person is we are all people and should be treated equally so… I thought the question was geared towards how would we feel about accepting a child of another or multiple races… however if i was asked about heritage and background I would have responded differently… my family is a big mix of everything you can imagine, Cherokee Indian, Irish, English, Portuguese, and i was once that were even a little black, but i cant verify that… plus were other things as well… we never had a cultural history like a lot of people do and I always wished that I did… so to me cultural pride and knowledge is very important I myself wish i had more of a cultural identity, and enjoy very much learning about other cultures and i always have… i used to study a lot about African American culture and was very passionate about the way i felt about our country’s past in regardless to slavery (i was very talkative about the subjects in class and wrote several papers on how horrible it was and how i personally felt about it and such an evil thing) i think every one should know about where they come from and be proud of that background… and i just don’t feel like i said that… i get nervous and tense and put my foot in my mouth and end up coming across like a babbling moron rather than a well spoken passionate person… but hey its just not my thing… but i could write an essay about it no problem (i just need a good editor lol) But I do think that culture is important that race is a big deal but not when it comes to equality people are the same when it comes to the equal human rights and that’s what I had meant… i realize that i may get comments and looks when toting around a child of mixed race and I also know how to handle such situation with dignity and respect, i have always spoken up for people even when i don’t know them and several time in race related incidents, i am fully aware of the ramifications of this type of adoption and I feel ready to handle it. I know it will not be easy and I will need to get evolved in some things that can help the child and i participate in cultural activities from hair care to heritage or just understanding that in our differences we are all the same (in the since that we all have differences).

We all face huge things in life, and i definitely know this is one of them… the truth is its not how much you face in life its how you handle it.

click the images to see the items in the shop

SO… this weekend the shop over at DPH had a sale… I’m the owner and i don’t even post about it on my blog… I’m dumb… I cant believe it either in 2 days we made $129 how crazy is that… (since i opened the shop in what august i think we made something like $20…)

I have been so forgetful lately I cant stop thinking about if they will call us about the disclosure for the little girl… I am so excited, but I just want to get the disclosure out of the way so we can meet her… In her picture she had a big stuffed pooh bear and it noted she liked pooh… and dolls so i bought her a pooh outfit in a 24 month and 36 months size (stupid sizing but that’s all they had… no 2t…) so i got both so whatever one fits her she can keep and the other we can take back and get her a different outfit… and i have been going thorough all the stuff in the room getting everything washed, the crib is ready but i think were going to have to convert it to a toddler bed since shes 2… Also I saw this at Costco and went ahead and got it… it was only $34 at the store… hopefully everything works out and we get her… i plan on giving it to her for Christmas. Plus we got a bigger car seat since the one i had was just an infant carrier, so we bought a toddler sized one..

all of this waiting is driving me crazy… it makes me sad too because she has lived 2 years of her life and we will never be able to have them back and experience them with her… and every day that passes it a big deal to me I just want to be able to have her here so we don’t have to miss anything else.