As of the 5th of this month Johnny and I have been together for 6 months… wow time has seriously flown by!

Im still workin’ at target its ok not great not horrible, its still hard for me. I know this is what every one else does… they work but im not used to it. I know its good for me and right now as I have no children its good I work and help out and Im fine with that, but at the same time its hard adjusting to this… I really havent adjusted to it yet and its been about 2 months now. I am glad I have a job and that its something that has nothing to do with food. I just hope I can keep going and do my best and maybe after a while it wont be so hard it will just become normal, natural… just what I do, you know?!

I have been taking depression medication for almost 2 months now and I feel slightly better but nothing major had changed I still feel unmotivated, depressed and hopless the majority of the time I think thats why I feel the way I do about working. I plan on going to the doctor next week and asking if maybe there is a higher dose of what I am currently taking. Right now i only take a 10mg dose I believe it goes to 20mg’s so hopefully if I took that it would help more because this just isnt enough, but then again I am tring to come out of a very long and serious depression so 10mg’s probably is more for mild or short term depression… I honestly dont know but I do want to feel better and no longer feel depressed all the time.