Lets start this off with something nice… shall we? I am officially a target employee as of Tuesday… As long as I pass the drug test… I just hope that big bowl of crack i smoked before my interview doesn’t come back to bite me in the ass… lmao I am 100% sure I passed… I already bought some khaki pants and a red shirt so they have to let me work there lol.

I am excited to have a job again and I definitely am glad I will not be working with food or cows! I have never worked at a place like target so its exciting I cant wait to get started!

tonight was a really weird night… First of all I had a very in depth conversation with the guy I buy hosting from which was cool but not something that has every happened before… usually my site screws up and I I’m him and he fixes it, I thank him and close the I’m… but its nice to know the people you do business with go through the same crap we do… then I go to myspace and I have a message from Brandon telling me his new wife is pregnant… I am not sure what to do with that. I am not mad or sad, or even upset… Yea I want to get pregnant too… but whatever I guess. Then Johnny and I are laying in bed talking and then at like 11:30 my cell phone rings… I’m like who the fuck??? my caller id says private so its either my mom or Loretta… I wasn’t going to answer but I was afraid it was my mom and there was some sort of emergency so I pick up… its Henry, Loretta’s husband asking if I knew where Loretta was… I don’t so I say no and ask is everything ok? he says no I haven’t seen her in over an hour etc. after he hangs up I decide to get out of bed and try to call her cell… no answer, its off.  So I give it a few minutes and try again… same thing. Then I debate on going looking for her… this time my house phone rings and its Loretta from her home phone explaining what happened and that everything was ok…

what a night huh?

I put up a new layout earlier… its boring and I don’t really like it but its different so whatever. I have been so uninspired lately. I am so sick of being so depressed so I am going to the doctor on Friday and seeing about an anti-depressant for a while.

As of today Johnny and I have been married for 4 months… 4 months already that’s crazy!!!

Since I had a period on my own I am trying to track my whole cycle so maybe this month I will actually end up pregnant… but if now I will be ok. I feel better about it now though because I feel like it could actually happen now… so we will see.