Last night was my party which turned out ok, I’m glad I have at least done one and I may be doing a couple more around the first of march…

Today sucked it was the crappiest valentines day I think I have ever had… first of all Johnny didn’t get here until 1 something plus he got me nothing not even a card… I at least got him that… I know his excuse “we have no money till the 15th” but I got my card for him the last week of December so there had been both time and money in between there… H said we could go to dinner and a movie, but the dinner thing was pretty much a joke because come one where would we be able to go and actually get in with no reservations??? and what kind of evening is it when you spent half of it just waiting for a table… crappy. I feel so unimportant when it comes to this stuff its like come on if you care TRY HARDER… its not that hard to pick up a card… or print one off the computer or even write a simple little note etc… hell the last one is free and perfectly acceptable… but nope nothing how depressing is that?! Oh also for having no money where did the money for dinner and a movie come from??? I don’t know but I am pissed and hes pissed at me for being pissed in the first place… LAME