As soon as I got home from Loretta’s house I went to the bathroom… and the toilet paper was redish pink, so maybe I am getting my period back on my own? I was so excited I called Johnny lol.

I Just want to be pregnant and I am sick of not having periods its been 3 years since Hannah died and my period never came back what the heck! Why I just want to know why and what can be done.

I know i need to go get that test done but i honestly don’t want to and am scared to death i want it to be explained to me verbally and to know if Johnny could at least go in and hold my hand.

I am trying to lose weight and have heard it will help but I don’t know… i feel like I’m flying blind here after seeing the doctors and I still don’t know a thing (insert screaming here).

I AM SO SICK OF THIS!!!!!