Janice | 
02 24th, 2007| 
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Feb
23
I was tagged by Terry.
RULES: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!
1. I love archeology and when i was young I wanted to be a archeologist, I still want to.
2. I have to have plan everything.
3. When I eat out, sit at my computer, am in the car or
anywhere else I sit indian style… (yes in chairs, on sofas in the floor whatever I cannot stand to sit any other way!
anywhere else I sit indian style… (yes in chairs, on sofas in the floor whatever I cannot stand to sit any other way!
4. I spend money like crazy and am not so great at money management.5. I have never gone down on a guy, and just the thought gags me.
6. I have been doing webdesign and had websites since the middle of 1999 when I was a freshman in highschool.
7. I never re-send that crap you get in an e-mail that says if you dont something bad will happen… (maybe thats why my life is in shambles lmao)
8. I am addicted to ebay and my average is about 50 perchases a month and this month is was 107.
9. I love being outside and planting things, and love bonsai trees.
10. I have almost 500 dvds
Feb
21
So called shabby chic stuff can be found just about any where any more… its no longer tucked away and high priced boutiques and antique stores, but to me most of the stuff is tacky knock offs of true eloquently aged or floral items. On ebay some of the tackiest and cheap looking junk is selling like crazy, but I wonder when the room is done will they think hmmm this looks lovely or will they be calling “take over my make over” to fix the horrifically cheesy decor job, because they indefinitely missed the mark?! Also I have noticed that there are so many new items that look so awful because they have been over sanded to have a faux aged look so they look or intentional dents and dings that are so “shabby chic” right… WRONG there is a fine like between a beat up piece of junk and lovely vintage piece. I want to capture my idea of true shabby chic which finding anything any more is like looking for a needle in a hay stack… when I actually find a good piece its something like a mini orgasm… always cause for celebration!
Last night was crazy I did 4 scrapbook pages I only need one more and my book will be full already. I still have a ton of pictures to put in too. I am already bored with the papers I have though… I need to go back and fully embellish the pages but the basics and the photos are there so I’m happy!!!
Were going to look at a house today… we have been looking at houses for a while but we never really saw something that really seemed like “us”. The one were looking at today is a cute cottage type with and huge backyard. I am excited to go check it out. Also Loretta and her husband have been looking into getting a house but I don’t think that they will be able to due to credit problems and neither of them work… but its to bad because they could really use a bigger place, especially with two boys.
Feb
17
I have poured the majority of depressing whining, bitching, complaining and god knows what else on this blog. I have wallowed for far to long, and its time to step out of the muck shake it off and move forward. I have what I do and don’t have what I don’t have… thats that, thats something that I seem to fight with every day. I want everything, and I have more than I should already. I try to deny it and hid it from every one but I am spoiled. I am a grown up and I have been doing what I thought I had to to just make it through the day, but it turns out I was wrong.
I miss Hannah but I am ok with that. I want to get pregnant but I need to adjust my life according to what it is not what it could be. I let each day pass me by with little or nothing to show for it. I have let a single event in my life leave my whole world in shambles. Its time to rebuild, re-evaluate, and figure out who I am now and just where this all has left me.
I miss my job… I hated the manager and despised the petty bull that went on from day to day but none the less it was a place to go and a little money and I liked having a job. I got exercise every day because I walked there. I could not hide in my home, because I was forced to get dressed and throw myself out of my house into the world, out of my little box to do something other than what I had done for month before I had job. But in the end I must accept I do not have that job any more and missing it will get me no where so i need to let it go.
I keep saying I am going to do this and that but this and that never get accomplished. The biggest problem is in order to do anything I have to wait for some one to take me where I want or need to go and that goes along with their terms agenda etc… a lot of times my mom will take me but then I have to go to her house and wait around for her for a few hours before she will take me home, so any more I just avoid this all together. I need to make an appointment with an eye doctor and then work on getting my damn license. I am tired of spending so much time immobilized when I have a laundry list of things I need and want to be doing.
I have got to stop buying so much stuff this past month I have spent way to much and I have to stop it… I don’t need all that stuff I just cant stop buying… there is this credit card shaped hole with in and no matter how much I spend I cannot fill it… so i will have to cement the bitch over huh?
I want to do something to have a more peaceful life, a more peaceful attitude but how do I even begin to do that? I need a hippie please… I’m serious! I want to be a calm and more loving person, I want to be more comfortable with my self, more open to change and more committed to the changes I want in my life…
