Today would have been my daughters 3rd birthday. Its sad for me but today was so much better than last year.   I feel like maybe I should be a total mess but really I’m not. I got teary eyed a few times today but I never flat out balled. In a way I feel guilty for not being more upset. I realize that time will pass and things will continue to get easier for me and I realize that my life being what it is good now. I really regret not keeping Hannah’s site up but at the time I just couldn’t deal with finishing it so i just gave up. Maybe one day I will re-do it and put it back up.

I seriously suck at making themes and I haven’t been able to come up with anything new. Its driving me crazy I want a new theme so bad! I also want a new domain but I cant think of anything I just have to have so oh well. I hate that for over a month now I have absolutely no creativity at all! Maybe if I had dsl I could see more stuff and have more inspiration lol…

I cant believe Johnny and I have been married  now for over a week, how crazy is that? Christmas is just around the corner and I have so much more shopping to do and I have yet to get a tree! I think we are getting a tree on Friday though, so maybe we can get it lit and decorated that day too!? I am so not looking forward to Christmas shopping all the good stuff will be gone . I did finally get my Christmas cards mailed… well most of them for a  few I am still waiting for their addresses.

wow its late its midnight I need to get some sleep .