I can not believe its already almost christmas… I have been buying and wrapping presents like crazy all week… I think Johnny and I have spent about $1000 on presents for every one and I still have to get a few more gifts for people. I am so excited to see Johnny open his gifts! I already filled his stocking and everything wont fit… Iam dissapointed theough I bought some cologne and a silver wireless remote for the ps2 i got Johnny for christmas and they didnt come in time, since the ps2 is his main christmas gift I will just give the controler to him when it gets here but I think I will just save the cologne for his birthday in february.

Christmas will be at my house this year which is going to be interesting. Tomorrow I have to go to my moms to help cook which probably wont be fun becuase I am still sick… I am not as stuffed up and my nose isnt running constanly but now I cant stop coughing and it very painful! I dont know what to do about it either.

All day today I have been cleaning house and wrapping presents I cant wait to be done with both! I am so ready tp go to bed but I will probably end up wipping something up for Johnny to eat when he gets home around 10:30… I hope its sooner though because I really want to get to bed so I can get up at a decent time and finish putting things away!

What are you doing for christmas? Whats on your wish list? There are a bunch of things I’d love to have but I like to be surprised so I really didnt ask for anything this year.

Ok I don’t know why everyone seems to think certain things about me… or assume them. I may have said something to the effect that I had no money… yea thats right no money in my pocket but my atm card always has at least $1000 dollars if i need it. Plus I have several thousand dollars in the savings. I have plenty of money. I don’t brag about everything I get or the amount of money I have because I know how it feels to not have the money that I do and its crappy when your barely making it and your friend has everything, some of my relatives and friends read this that don’t have a lot of money and I chose not to rub it in their face. But I am fine I have debts and I pay them every month, I have insurance, we generally have food… when we actually have time to go to the store. My mom thinks I have no money too… it drives me crazy because shes always saying why did you buy this how can you afford that, i guess because I don’t pay off my debts all at once but $500 plus dollars is enough its more than they asked so I think its alright.

Last night my so called friend Felicia called, to tell me she found out the sex of the baby, its a girl but she was rubbing in my face she was sort of snotty and made some comments like aren’t I jealous etc… Thats all she ever calls me for is to say poo like that and then suddenly she has to go if i try to talk, or she said oh let me call you back… and then never does.

I didnt get all teary eyed like I used to but I wasnt happy either. I though about everything for a long time and decided I am not going to take another dose of the clomid, because I need to lose weight, maybe thats not the problem but I know I would feel better about myself if I lost weight then I could go to the fertility doctor healthy and feeling good. After the first of the year I am going to start going to weight watchers, and I am going to hire a personal trainer for 2 or three times a week to meet with me and help me get in shape. I really want to have a baby but I also want to get pregnant and be healthy so that hopefully things will be fine. I also am going to go to driving school and then get my driver liscense so I can be more independant and not have to rely on other people having to take me places. I probably not do everything all at once but I really want to do them soon!

Welcome to the new domain… wadda ya think?

I have so much stuff I need to work on, on this site I am moving a lot of the content to a different site, I need to update some content, remove others and update everything else. I finally got around to fixing pb.net I still have some things I need to do over there but who knows when that will happen. If you have a problem with something please let me know and I will get it fixed asap!

I know everything isnt fixed yet but I am working on it, I am removing  lot of the content and a bunch of other things I just dont want on here any more.
I still have so much christmas shopping to do… and so much preparing for christmas. I have yet to get my tree decorated. I did manage to get some presents wrapped yesterday maybe I can wrap a few more tomorrow!

I am still sick, I am slightly better today but not a whole lot. Johnnys starting to get sick too… well he was sick since he woke up this morning really. My nose is so chapped i keep putting medicine on it but I blow my nose so often it barely has any time to sink in… I just hope I feel better in the morning!

Yesterday I thought I was going to die I had a horrible shooting pains in my stomache and was in and out of the bathroom all day, it was aweful. And now I wake up this morning around 2 and have a lovely surprise I have a sore throat worse than any other I have ever had… it hurts my throat when I breathe! My cats arent helping either they see that I have a cup of tea here, well I doubt the realize the difference between that and water but any way they cant wait to pester me and try to stick their noses in it damnit ! Yesterday I had a brand new ice cold water bottle and I left it open after taking a drink and swiveled my chair to the side to get something and when I turn back fiesty’s nose is in the hole on top sniffing… SOB cat! Oh the joy of having pets lol. Damn them they keep trying to sneak over like I dont see them try to check out if my drink is something they like…