Janice | 
08 5th, 2006| 
I am very excited… I dont know if any of you have seen the tv show starting over, I love it and find it very inspiring. I have decided that my issues are more than I can just take care of alone and I am going to send in a tape to see what happens. I think it would be really great and they really help you and teach you so much and they make sure you get what you need to solve the problem you have etc. Maybe that seems lame but I feel like it would be really great for me and it doesnt hurt to try. I cant face all of this stuff alone and I would love to be able to go there and try to get my life back. I think the biggest thing is the fact is that they wont let you make excuses or get away with anything and I need that so wee will see…
Aug
4
I am so happy! I am still working on my moivation and getting things done and I finally got up and really cleaned and everything looks so much nicer and I feel better too.
I can’t seem to go to sleep before 3 any more… I dont know why because I never sleep past 9 or 10 but I am always up really late. I got to bed and just think and my mind wont stop racing with thoughts so finally I get up and do something until I feel tired enough to actually fall asleep, I dont want to take a slleping pill or benadryl because the few times I tried that I always woke up feeling like crap. At the moment I honestly dont know what to do about it, I think it may be an anxiety thing.
Johnny and I cant seem to find out where to buy the faucet attatchment for the dish washer. I wish we could so that I could use it and not have to do it my self. I would really like to get the dish drainers off my counter.
Johnny put the treadmill today, I tried it out tonight and its really great I hope I will really use it regularly and lose some weight.
Aug
1
I promised pictures a few days ago… and I can’t post any still because I cant for the life of me find my damn camera cord… I havent used it since I moved back over here. I know I brought it, its got to be here somewhere I really want to find it today!I am so annoyed with my manager here… she manages the mobile home park where I live. I don’t know what her deal is but she drinks and smokes like crazy I don’t know how old she is but she looks like a raisin she has wrinkles from head to toe, she lives alone and I don’t know if she has ever been married and she has no kids. So for one I think she is bitter about her life, hence the constant drunkenness and attitude. She came over 2 days ago bitching about my front yard (about 6 feet by 7 feet and most is cement) complaining about the weeds, so I said ok no problem I will take care of it… but that day I was busy and was gone (I was on my way out when she stopped by) then yesterday I was gone all day and didn’t get home until it was getting dark. She came over today throwing a fit because it wasn’t done saying “the insurance people are coming” (she has already played that cart about 10 times in the last 2 years come one… I simply told her I was sorry I had been busy but she had to give people some notice i believe 7 days etc and she was like “oh you want a 7 day notice huh you get 3 a year and you get kicked out you know” I tried to say no I mean you have to tell people ahead of time its not a warning or notice really just time to get what you ask done and as a renter by law I have that right and at that she walked away threatening eviction etc… well she cant just evict me and if she tried I would have 6 months rather than the regular 30 days because I own the mobile home I only rent the space and its a lot harder to have a mobile home moved that to move just your stuff and a lot more costly too… and I wouldn’t have to pay rent for any of those months and I know that because I talked to a lawyer about it a few months after moving in, because she would threaten to evict me for every little thing… I was planning on doing it today but I refuse to let this bitchy old woman try to push me around because she thinks I am young and stupid I have rights and I shouldn’t have to live on pins and needled being afraid of losing my home because of every little thing!
Today should be yet another busy day. We are trying something new today… 20 minutes together cleaning each room in the house so by they end of the day everything should sparkle… hopefully! My new vacuum is not working right though.
