Yesterday we finally moved everything… thats sucked and now everything is a mess that we have to sort out and put away, but at least the hardest part is over.

We didnt have time to take down the dsl satelite and get it moved so I will be stuck with dial up until friday.
Also my sister told me she is pregnant… it figures. She is an awol army whatever at the moment she is pregnant by a guy who is married and has two kids and she cant get a job drive or really do anything because if she is found she will be arested… and shes excited are you fucking kidding me??? what kind of life can she give this baby? Oh yea she is married too… is it that every one can get pregnant but me? sometimes that is seriously how i feel… but what can I do?

Ok I am so frusterated. For a while now Johnny can be a bit to mean to the cats, not like a sick evil pet torturing freak but still he just takes it to far sometimes. if they deserve a good swat hill give them 3 or mess with them even after its been to long you know. I will tease my kittys sometimes but I know when enough is enough and I dont hurt them or make them cry on purpose. What happened tonight was he left the room mad and I didnt realize it but he left without even saying good bye to me. He was mad becase the cats keep getting on his desk I for one wasnt even in here all day and I have picked the fucking stuff that fell of at least 20 times today and he got all mad becasue Princess was on the desk I honesly hadnt even noticed plus i was exausted and he just kind of blew up about it, well he kept hittin this box of stuff into the cat (he could have reached in and picked her up maybe gave her a swat and set her down) but he was being to agressive and I said stop and kept saying dont hurt her and he was like then kepp them pinned up or something in the most fucked up tone of voice and then stormed out… It probably sounds worse than it was but still it upset me and the solution is so easy for one i would have put the stuff in a box not just loose… I really dont like this

Well I didnt get a whole lot done but we did get the smaller air conditioner set up in my bedroom window so that once we are moved over there it will be nice and cool. I think on monday we will be moving the computer and internet satelite over there and getting that all set up and then on wednesday maybe moving the bed over and get that up and finally be staying over there!!! I cant wait!

My mom told me the other day that my birth mother (her daughter) called her all upset and crying because I was going to be staying after all… WTF i only made a brief commnet months ago and that was it and to top it off she said im moving over there with Johnny. Which is true but thats my bussiness and I am not ready to deal with my mother about this and I dont care if I say that here or tell you straight up its my info to tell and no one elses. I am done with her I dont care if she is upset I dont want people running around blabbing about my life especially to my mother, I love my mom but I have good reason for all of this.

Ok this stupid ass hole Andrino (the former hay guy) he took a check that was returned (from last november) and changed the 11 to a 4 as best he could and the year to 2006 instead of 2005 and signed JB for Johnnys entials kindo of over part of the converted 11 and the fucking thing went through for almost $5,000 leaving them with - 21 cents. So now some paymenst cant be paid and there will be late fees and all that but they are pressing charges asap! What a dumb ass though you cant do that and get away with it…

I am really glad that I havent gotten pregnant yet… well in a way if I had I would have been so excited. I still want a baby more than anything and hope some time in the near future I will be able to get pregnant. I want to have a baby when I know I am in a good situation, I am glad that I have my own place and I already have a crib… my dream crib really (so expensive but so worth it!) I have an extra room for my baby… its small but so are babies so it works out. I have some other items too, not as much as I used to though. I really would like to be pregnant by the end of summer, by then we will have gotten a new fridge, stove, freezer and gotten the ceiling fixed in the living room as well as a partition built in the living room a new front door and the living room painted and maybe more than that by then. So really it would be perfect. I am just sad because I really want a baby and I really am doing my best to keep busy and be patient.

Tomorrows project will be putting up my smaller a/c unit in my bedroom window, the new one whic is about twice the size and weight of that one took about and hour to get the wood cut and everything installed so this one should take no more than that. Then we will probably measure the ceiling area and the place where we want the partition to go and maybe price it all… after we have those two things done we can paint and the room will be done! Also we may be taking the computer and satelite well basically everything but the bed and I would be staying there instead thank God! We would get the bed in a few days after that.

Also I decided to just get rid of the stuff I was going to sell on ebay and I went through the baby stuff again and decided to get rid of more of it. I seriously cant believe how much stuff I have gotten rid of and how much I still want to get rid of. Slowly things are starting to look better so soon things should be all set really soon. Its sad I have lived there for over 2 years and because I was so depressed it still looks like I just moved in, luckily I am feeling alot better and want to get things finished!

Also a new scrapbooking freebie, some pretty pink glitter embelishments!