OK I am done Ranee… You pretty much proved my point. You said the same thing over and over even after I explained and cleared certain things up, you cling to your false reality of me. Your ignorance and inability to listen is astounding but whatever say what you will that doesn’t make what you say true, and it doesn’t make you right. If you cannot accept that people make mistakes and things and will hold things I did several years ago against me even though I admitted what I did was not right and have changed… I don’t care if you believe me and your insensitivity and immaturity is very pathetic, and so is your lack of compassion for the dead and greaving. I am still in the process of figuring out what I want from my life and I as well as everyone else in the world will make mistakes and that is ok because without mistakes what we know about ourselves? How would we ever grow? we wouldn’t so these things are important even if they aren’t the best thing or the funnest to go through. Its all what you make of things and of all of this the only thing I can say is I feel better about myself because I said what was true and admitted my wrong doings and as a human being that’s all I can do…

OK any way, yesterday was insane Johnny and I were running around all day. Johnny’s mom gave us her dish washer because some one gave her a better one so we had to pick that up, it was both heavy and awkward but we managed. We also took a bunch more stuff out of here to get rid of which sucked because we hauled out a dresser that weighed a ton I honestly didn’t think we would be able to get it into the truck but some how we managed. We also picked up our new table and set it up. Then we had to go to walco and get a drum of pre-dip and some medicine for the dairy, Johnny called in about 4 hours before and the order wasn’t ready so we had to wait… which is typical but then they bitch because we got there right before they close, but if the order had been ready we could have just got it and left. If they were busy then ok i can see why it wasn’t ready but they weren’t and they even said it was a slow day… After we had dropped that all off at the dairy, we bought the treadmill. I think that was the worst because bring it in was not fun because its really heavy it took a little while but we managed to get that in too.

I have been trying so hard to get things done, the are so many thing to do around here. Its been so hot it was hard to really do anything but yesterday was decent and today is supposed to be cooler so I should have no problem. Honestly I am really proud of my self I have got rid of so much stuff and decided that if something doesn’t have a place that it cannot stay. I want to eliminate chaos in my home because I know that when everything looks really nice you feel nice and you don’t have to run around and clean everything you just have to maintain it.I keep thinking about all the projects we can do around here once its all done its going to look so awesome here, plus it will be really neat that Johnny and I will have did it all!

Ok I have a list of things I want to do and then tonight I will post pic’s of the new fridge, table and where I live!