OMG yea the damn divorce was canceled WTH. they could have just not let it be final until it was paid but we have to re-file I called though and they said that all my stuff is fine he just has to re-submit his shit… he said he cant for 2 weeks seriously some one shoot me PLEASE!!!! I am so pissed. he said he knew a few weeks ago… thanks for telling me (insert choice fraise here)! this means we wont be divorced until like December so Johnny and I cant get married until after that plus I just want this to be over… and the hassle I went through to get the bitch filed in the first place… I want to be totally done with this… with him, all of it I hated having it hanging over my head and was so relieved to have it done and now I’m back to square one only this time i can do nothing so if he screws around it could be God knows how long… I cant even begin to express my frustration right now.

Plus I have a friggin mess to clean up in the kitchen. I bought a 4 pack of tab and really i had no more energy than usual… plus I think i am going to have a $35 or several $35 fees because of insufficient funds i have nothing in the bank at all I cant afford the fees plus who wants to pay fees because of one effin day…? it will be in there the next day damn it!

Yesterday I was all excited at the possibility that the progesterone worked and maybe we would be having a baby soon and this has totally stomped on any excitement I had… which sucks I was all happy and excited and its nice to feel that way… it last like 3 minutes then I read the e-mail and bam… train wreck.

I ordered some cute pants from anthropologie… its expensive but I had the money at the time so I got them, I hope they look cute on me. I also ordered 5 more pairs of flip flops for me and 2 for Johnny… I now have all of the basic old navy flip flops besides white, because what is the point of a white flip flop they will be filthy in no time… he will have all but the olive green ones, only because they were out of that color in his size.

Even though all of this totally sucks I totally would be happy if Johnny and I were going to have a baby, we know we would get married if it weren’t for this shit and plan on it as soon as we can… and having a baby I really think would only be a good thing for us, it would defiantly be uplifting from this mess… the divorce and the dairy… the double d’s lol

Ok I am seriously ready to crash so i need to get my stuff done so i can sleep… hopefully ready to tackle the messes around here! Cross your fingers please!