OK I have attempted to block Brandon (my soon to be ex-husband)… not because of anything other than how can I let go of the past if its commenting on my site and throwing old messes and mishaps back in my face… I don’t like some of what he says and he clearly doesn’t listen because I am no longer trying to have a baby… Also he should move on and not even worry about what I am doing any more it is unhealthy for him and since he has a girlfriend he really shouldn’t be here, I certainly don’t want my boyfriend commenting on his ex-girlfriends site or whatever. My point is why is he here is he was over this he wouldn’t be here I guess this is the same old shit as before one of the many reasons I couldn’t be with him. He used to go on and on and torment me because he felt like shit about something so instead of moving on he would talk about the same thing over and over and over following me when I removed my self from the situation and making me miserable and although this really isn’t making me miserable, I do find his comments unneeded and full of speculation and selfishness. The must be some reason but it isn’t to make me feel better, give me advise or because he is my friend so … what the fucks up? It seems maybe he feels guilty or jealous for some reason because if you think about it, the fact he comments here, and what he says what’s the point? He and I are not together, we don’t really talk with the exception of brief conversations about the divorce but that’s is. I am not mad and I am sure he will fine a way to get on here and OK whatever that’s fine I guess but what’s the point? I am not trying to be mean here, and if it seems that way you are wrong… i just feel uncomfortable knowing my ex is leaving me comments … its weirdOn a better note today was OK not great but not bad either. I got a few things done which is always nice. I am hoping that I will have a little time to go home tomorrow and take some pictures of some things I want to sell and get to it, I know that once I really start getting rid of it I will feel better. Also I think I am going to rearrange my living room I am so sick of how it looks…

I actually got to spend most of today with my sweetie which was nice! Hopefully all this dairy stuff will get figured out so I can spend more time with Johnny.

I really want to put up a new layout but I have been so busy I haven’t had time to come up with anything cute maybe soon?

I have been cooking like crazy this week I made spaghetti, chicken and rice casserole, then yesterday I made fettucini and I made my own alfredo sauce, pork chops and Brussels sprouts, and this morning I made French toast and I would have cooked tonight but we have a lot of fettucini left and pork chops too…