I decided something today… I went through all of my maternity clothing and baby clothes and I will be getting rid of most of it… I have a ton of maternity clothes and am only keeping 2 or 3 things and I am only keeping the baby things that I really want. I was hanging on to this stuff for so long, Hannah died a little over to years ago now and so its time to get rid of the stuff and go on with my life. at this present time I just don’t see a baby in the near future so I decided that its time to be realistic and give up the dream of having a baby … at least for the time being. I will be auctioning everything off on ebay. It too along time to be able to say that I am finally ready to let this stuff go and get on with my life, but sometimes you have to until you are really ready to let go and as hard as it was sorting through all that stuff I knew it needed to be done. Also these were items I got when I was pregnant with Hannah and she isn’t here and never used any of it. Also if I do get pregnant later on I can always buy what I need then, I think that since the baby would be Johnny’s first and sort of mine too (since Hannah never came home so I never got to have here with me). It would be nice to get all of the essentials and clothing together since that is prat of the fun of expecting a baby. I am still keeping the crib, Moses basket, car seat and stroller and some other things but a lot of it is boxed up ready to go.
It also looks like we wont be moving as soon as I thought … maybe not at all. The place we were supposed to move to already got rented to sold to some one else and they weren’t looking for renters so now we are off to keep looking for a place to rent.

It was so cute when Johnny and I got home Henita (one of the cats here who is pregnant) was on the phone table staring up at the clock which was probably 4 feet higher than she could reach but she was just watching the hands move and finally she tried to get to it by putting her front paws up on the wall as high as she could… i should have taken a picture, but i didnt.
I am so tired so I need to get some sleep…