Sometimes things happen in life that brings us down, but we have the choice to either wallow in our misery or deal with it and not let it get the best of us. For to long I have been stuck in the muck letting just about everything bring me down and make me feel horrible. But the truth is it doesnt have to be this way… Getting over certain things is not easy and life is complete chaos always but people still survive… (note to self lets try to make it through with some dignity). Expeting somthing done effortlessly to be fantastic only leaves you dissapointed so I need to force myself to do certain things and maybe along the way it wont be so difficult any more. After Hannah died I let everything fall apart around me, i gave up my friends, my life I basically stopped living. Now its time to get back what I lost or better yet just start over and get my life back on track!

Now I need to get some things taken care of! my #1 priority is getting the divorce filed this week, we split up over 6 months ago and now we have the money to do it so we really need to get it done… dont you think?

Next I need to do my dishes now that my sink is unclogged as well as put some laundry away. I washed about 6 loads of laundry and have yet to put them away but also I am almost never home so that makes it difficult. Also I need to re-stock my fridge Its completly empty… When the power was off over a month ago I took everything to Johnnys and havent bought grocerys since… I think its about time I did!

Also I need to get some new clothes… badly! I need new bras mine are pretty much worn out, I need some new pants I only have 2 pairs right now, I could also use a few new tops… Hopefully I will have enough to get a few things this pay period…

Also I need to take some pictures of my wedding dress so I can sell it on ebay, it was almost $700 when I bought it an I probably wont get half of that but whatever I can get would be nice so I can pay of some debt. I may sell the rings too but I havent decided yet… I know I wont get what was paid for them ($2700 for both) so I dont want to sell them and not get much. But if I could get a decent amount I could pay off most of my debt which would be awesome!

I also need to get my nails filled this week and I really want to get my hair profesionally colored, maybe a dark blond so that when my hair grows out it will match and I can just let it grow out! I really want my hair to be long again it used to be to the middle of my back.. I want it like that again!